Dear Grace,
Dinner in Torrevieja
I had a great night out with Roland, the Dutch guy in my Spanish Classes. We went to Harry’s Lounge and Kitchen, ranked number 6 in Torrevieja. The place I assume is owned by Finns, as the menu was in English, Spanish and Finnish, and was packed with Scandinavians (as you know Finns are not Scandinavians). There was live music, a music quiz, and even dancing. Things I am normally hate, yet I enjoyed it. I had “Grace” moment, getting up and dancing.
Life feels really okay at the moment. I’m moving forward, and while there are still a few things I’d like to improve, there’s nothing pressing.
Missing Intimacy, but enjoying my freedom being alone
I swipe on dating apps now and then, but I’m not desperate to date. I’ve had a few dates, but none of them have felt quite right. I’ve realized how comfortable I feel being on my own. I also find myself comparing other women to you in so many ways, and no one comes close.
What I do miss, though, is intimacy—the feeling of being close and connected to someone. But otherwise, I’ve grown to enjoy my independence. Thinking back to when you first went into care, I see how much I’ve learned. Back then, I craved being desired and loved, needing someone. Now, I feel grateful for the freedom I’ve found.
I’ve been making new friends and striking up conversations with strangers more often these days. Without you by my side, I’ve had to learn. You were always the engaging one, the pretty one, the one people gravitated toward.
Residents’ Group Progress in Lo Pagan
Things are really moving along here in Lo Pagán. Over 50% of the property owners in our residential area have already joined the WhatsApp group—and it’s only been a week! It’s amazing to see everyone come together. Now, everyone has a voice, and there’s so much more transparency. I’ve even received some kind and supportive messages from other owners. Fingers crossed we can get everyone on board.
Walk with Lara
I met up with Lara today—you remember her, the Slovenian girl who has a Spanish boyfriend called Fernando. They stayed with us back in 2018. We took a lovely walk along the waterfront in Santa Pola. The weather was perfect, calm, and sunny, about 22°C in the afternoon.
I ended up talking about you a bit today. I reflected on the things I learned from you and about you. I also realised that I may have expected too much from you at times—expecting you to play roles in our relationship that perhaps weren’t natural for you. For that, I’m sorry.
Tomorrow’s Plans
I’m flying to Rotterdam tomorrow at 10:20 from Alicante.
I miss you. I hope you’re well.
Love,
David
